I have been struggling with the concept of letting go of my need to control the outcome of things and trusting that all things are working together for my greater good.
I discovered that I want to control things because I have a lot of fear of not knowing what is going to happen. But deep down inside I know that I am controlling to eliminate fear but in reality trusting is what truly eliminates fear from out lives. I can trust that every moment is perfect, exactly the joy I am meant to be feeling or the lesson I am meant to be learning. I can pay close attention to that moment and get the most out of it. I can create positive energy in my life. Or I can fight against what is happening at this moment and try to change and control it and be afraid of what will happen if I can't have things my way and wallow in the negative energy this generates.
THE PATH TO POSITIVE ENERGY
I believe that everyone's purpose on this earth is to generate positive energy. There are lots of ways to increase your positive energy but the main one is to continue to work towards fulfilling your soul purpose, the reason you are living this life. Along with listening deeply to yourself, I believe that your astrology birth chart can show you where you are meant to go.
There is a path that leads to realizing your soul purpose. There is a straight line that leads from birth that is easy to follow if you live in the moment and follow what you hear deeply inside yourself. When you follow this path you generate enormous amounts of positive energy for yourself and others. You feel great and look great and are happy. (I think children are really good at following straight along this path because they are really great at listening to themselves... that is until they become used to listening to what we tell them!) On this path you enjoy every moment as perfect, whether it is an opportunity or a lesson. You know some people on this path. They are the ones that handle what life throws at them, not matter how bad, with grace and acceptance.
CHOICES ALONG THE WAY
Along the path there are events that happen. I believe that these events can be read in astrology. These events create a choice to continue straight on the path or to be led off the path. Sometimes the events are little (order steak or fish for dinner?) and sometimes they are big (go to college or travel for a few years?). Usually one choice generates the most positive energy and keeps you on the path to realizing your soul purpose and one choice leads you away. This moment of choice is perfect. It is a moment of looking quietly inside yourself to see the answer.
But for many this is a moment of fear. What's going to happen if we choose the steak instead of the fish? Am I going to be unhappy with my dinner? Am I going to put on 2 pounds? What about college versus traveling? Am I going to feel trapped if I stay or will I fall behind if I go? We are afraid of making the choice because we are trying to control the outcome by doing things, by figuring things out, instead of just listening to what our heart says.
Most of us cannot hear so deeply inside ourselves at all times, or even some of the time, because we have so many blocks to our energy from past traumas. Instead of being able to listen to ourselves tell us what we need to generate positive energy, we are busy trying to get that energy from outside ourselves or we are busy protecting what we already have. So many times instead of listening deep within ourselves and choosing the option that feeds our heart and generates the positive energy, we listen to the outside and choose the options that feeds our ego or our need for logic and generates money, power or fame. And these choices lead us off the path.
STRAYING FROM THE PATH
Many times in our lives we stray off the path. Sometimes a little, sometimes really far. And the universe will intervene to guide you back on the path by providing events (again, you can see these written in astrology) that cause you to stop and pay attention and realize you are off the path. I am pretty sure the universe is sending these messages when we stray even a little from the path. I think these come in the form of life's little frustrations like an annoying neighbor or a minor injury. But I think most of us are so blocked that we can not see these little messages as hints that we need to make changes and we only pay attention when the message comes in loud and clear through a major illness or financial issue and relationship difficulty.
This is a time that generates a lot of fear. Because we want to control the outcome. Badly.
But the moment of these crisis, big or small, are perfect. They are opportunities to learn. To trust that the universe is guiding us through our lessons. A time to say to ourselves..."This is what is meant to be happening. What is it teaching me? What is this discomfort pointing at that I need to heal.?"
Many of us get the message at some point and work our way back towards the path by tuning in to ourselves and following our hearts. We learn the lessons and heal some of the traumas that we have been carrying around. We get back on the path, or closer to it, and begin generating more positive energy. We feel better and look better and are happier.
Sadly there are some people who do not learn the lessons and continue further away from the path while generating more and more negative energy. I think that when we choose to fight against the universe and continue to stray, we are setting ourselves up to bring these unlearned lessons back in our next life.
HOW TO STAY ON THE PATH
The first step is to trust that you have the answers to all of the little choices in your life if you listen deeply inside yourself. That is much easier to do if you are not holding on to lots of negative energy. And it is sometimes helpful to use things like meditation or a pendulum or tarot cards to help you listen more deeply. If you have listened to your own voice, you will be fine. Be in that perfect moment with yourself!
Now, if you stray from the path you need to trust the universe to get you back on. When the crisis hits, you need to trust that this is just the universe getting you back on track. And instead of trying to control what happens, you need to listen closely. Remember that the moment is perfect. You are where you are meant to be. You can learn and heal. You do not need to try to control.
Always remember, this is where you are meant to be. Every moment is perfect.